Why did I do this?

 Why did I stop being involved with her little play group friends? It probably has hindered her more than anything. I felt sad seeing these children, most of them younger, doing things M wasn't. Looking back, I am not even sure the other parents noticed at the time, but I did. I was selfish to pull back and away from these women, who's children were a good thing for M. The only thing I can say now is "oh well, my loss". BUT it is not just my loss, it is hers.

 At the same time though, I keep finding my self thinking, especially during the good  moments, "What if the Developmental Neurologist got this wrong"? I KNOW that she wasn't, but it is during those good moments, the moments she feels she wants to let us in to her world, that I find myself saying that.

Halloween was great for my little Sensory Seeker. A few things were too much for her, but Daddy rescued her (lol). She was a girl on a mission, and her mission? CANDY. She wore a part of her costume, but that was okay. She likes HER clothes. She only said thank you to a few old ladies. I think she just sensed they were motherly and wise. Only ONE lady got offended she didn't say Trick or Treat, or thank you, or speak when she was spoken too. Jeremy just said, "Happy Halloween". I am grateful he was with her, because I probably would have educated her a little.

 Things were off yesterday. W had a half day at school, and I suck at remembering (and figuring out) when exactly he should get the bus. M didn't go to sleep until 3:30 in the morning because she was on sensory overload, and J was cranky! It was a lot for him too. To day seems to be going well. I finally got M to get dressed and we are going to see Pop. The kids love their Pop. On a Mommy note, I get my phone today. Woo Whoo. This means LOTS of phone calls to make Monday. I have to call Daycares to find a place that will take an unpotty trained 2 year old with special needs, EI, TBS where M will be attending in May, and a friend about therapies for M. Still on the fence about EI since she will only get it for 6 months and a few other Mom's in the area told me that EI more often than not cancelled their appointments.

Anyway, thanks for reading!

Mama H.